The Bells have chimed to say that yet another Year has passed on my journey down the path, called life. I am very lucky to share that journey with God and my saviour Jesus Christ. In addition I am privileged to witness the growth and beginnings of a walk in faith of my two boys George and Harry, and that of my Wife’s. I am in a lucky position that no matter what besets us our families are supportive and give us all the help they can.
It is at times like this, new beginnings or years, that we take stock of the blessings and downfalls that we all have. It is time for making, and if you are anything like me, a time of breaking promises, to do better this year. But this Sunday a very dear member of my church family told me to cease from striving. I have to admit I am still not entirely sure what she meant by it. But it was definitely a word from God. I have been beset with such words myself, such as be still, come and be obedient. I don’t know, but it seems I am being told to stop trying too hard. I am, I like to think, a man who sees a need and fills that need, whether I am best qualified or not. I find it hard to rest and let others work around me. A trait I am sure that has been passed onto me by my very dear parents.
I don’t see enough of my parents and sister and here families, but that is something that will always be the case when I continue to live and work in a city 200 odd miles from them.
I have decided that I must try and sort my finances out, I need to also make sure Vanessa has a clear understanding of what comes out and into our accounts. I am at the moment the only one who does, and I am aware that should my time be over she would be completely lost at a time when other matters would be more important to her and the boys. I must also try to keep myself fit, I will endever to loose weight and in doing so hope that the heart problems that I have will be lessened. I promise to try and read my bible more often. I also promise to be more patient. try to stop getting getting stressed out. I will let my friends and family tell me when I am doing too much. I will also be more confident. I want to lose the anxiety that has tied me to my bedroom. I will continue to work hard to work out the issues with Lis and the CBT (Cognative Behaviour Therapy) that will hopefully enable me to finally close the pandora’s box that have been troubling me since September.
My resolutions this year are something that I can and will be able to do, with help obviously. But achievable none the less. Too all who may come across this blog I wish you all the best, prosperity and blessing this year and always.
It is at times like this, new beginnings or years, that we take stock of the blessings and downfalls that we all have. It is time for making, and if you are anything like me, a time of breaking promises, to do better this year. But this Sunday a very dear member of my church family told me to cease from striving. I have to admit I am still not entirely sure what she meant by it. But it was definitely a word from God. I have been beset with such words myself, such as be still, come and be obedient. I don’t know, but it seems I am being told to stop trying too hard. I am, I like to think, a man who sees a need and fills that need, whether I am best qualified or not. I find it hard to rest and let others work around me. A trait I am sure that has been passed onto me by my very dear parents.
I don’t see enough of my parents and sister and here families, but that is something that will always be the case when I continue to live and work in a city 200 odd miles from them.
I have decided that I must try and sort my finances out, I need to also make sure Vanessa has a clear understanding of what comes out and into our accounts. I am at the moment the only one who does, and I am aware that should my time be over she would be completely lost at a time when other matters would be more important to her and the boys. I must also try to keep myself fit, I will endever to loose weight and in doing so hope that the heart problems that I have will be lessened. I promise to try and read my bible more often. I also promise to be more patient. try to stop getting getting stressed out. I will let my friends and family tell me when I am doing too much. I will also be more confident. I want to lose the anxiety that has tied me to my bedroom. I will continue to work hard to work out the issues with Lis and the CBT (Cognative Behaviour Therapy) that will hopefully enable me to finally close the pandora’s box that have been troubling me since September.
My resolutions this year are something that I can and will be able to do, with help obviously. But achievable none the less. Too all who may come across this blog I wish you all the best, prosperity and blessing this year and always.
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