Had a good weekend in Blackpool, Vanessa seems much better now that she has seen her dad. Martin seems to be coping with the death sentence better than I expected. Viv is putting a brave face on things but I can tell that it has knocked her for six.

Martin has returned to the faith that he was inducted into. Thank you God that you welcome us back into the fold even after lapsing. Look upon your child martin with compassion and help him to reconcile his return unto your arms.

Blackpool is the same as ever. It does not help that we go to the same places do the same things and generally repeat the same steps every time we go. I think when we can a change in destination would be a good idea.

The trip to Norfolk has been postponed till next week as cash has evaporated and the voucher money has not yet hit my account. We are taking a leap of faith that means we could be left with egg on our face but hey ho.

I am completely exhausted from the weekend and my legs, back arm and shoulder are aching with the cold wet weather we are experiencing. I am also not entirely sure about my blood pressure it seems to be out of control again. I will have to wait and see what Dr Gunn thinks in September.

I am feeling like poo, my tooth hurts and I can’t get to a dentist!!!!!!!!! My children are doing my head in. I am knackered as I did not sleep very well. The Doctor finally gave me some seleping pills. yippee

After going to Skeggy on Sunday with the Club, I have been exhausted and a little unwell. It seems I may have over done things. I had to cancel yesterdays meeting with Louise Morson, and from that I am beginning to get the nagging feeling that i am neglecting my faith. It just is not very easy to connect at the moment. When I want to do anything with the Church being in Firth Park has mad it very difficult to get there. Never mind I have resolved to make a better effort and keep connecting when I can. I have found out that there is to be a party on 1st Sept in Norfolk to celebrate Uncle Derek’s 50th, Laura’s 18th & Dad’s birthday. I am afraid that we cannot afford to do both and I would be unhappy to miss the last service with Mike Gilbert. We are at the moment still going down for a few days next week.

Update

It seems, that I have neglected to use this software a bit. This may be because I have been shattered and not felt like doing an entry. However, I wanted to last night, which means I’ve just got to get back into the habit of it. I am currently feeling really dopy as the Doc’s have increased my Citilapram up to 60μg a day. I am feeling a little mor anxious as well and have been taking it out on Vanessa. I hopefully should feel better soon. Martin has been told he has a couple of years left and feeling rather scared. We are hoping to go and see him next weekend followed by a trip to see my folks as this will be the first time since christmas we will have seen them. I don’t want to go by train however, I don’t have much choice seeing as how I have been asked to not drive for a while.. We probably couldn’t have afforded the car and petrol anyway.

I am trying out this copy of MacJournal, to see if this is better than using pages as I was doing. I am a little unsure how to operate it at the moment, but I am sure that it will work out fine.

I have sucessfully installed and setup the wireless router for Janet. I am now connected as is Nessa and Janet. I think that it has been locked and therefore should not have access to outsiders but we will see.